You mean so much more than a job.

There are plenty of careers out there where each day is the same. Each day without passion. Each day without memories imprinted. My career before photography left me with a void – I was missing something greater – something with impact. Every person I meet regardless of whether they hire me, is a person I cherish. Each of their stories make an impression. Today I share one story.

Today was like any other day where I was going through the routine – coffee, records playing, editing, business emails, shower, pandora break and then I heard the song which stops me in my tracks everytime. “A Thousand Years” by Christina Perri. This song has played at several weddings but the first time I heard it was July 27, 2013 as Amanda walked down the asile with her Mom and Dad toward Juan, her loving fiance. Immediately I paused and listened to the lyrics as I do everytime this song floats through my home. My heart aches and fills with love all at once. The love between Juan and Amanda is something you can see and feel from a distance yet to see this in the presence of their family only strengthened that bond. I remember their processional with such precision – Amanda’s Mom teared up with so much happiness but still trying to hold it all back as they walked toward Juan. Then Amanda’s Dad teared up as he hugged Amanda and gave her to Juan. This song embodies so much more than their processional. It is the soundtrack for their love and their families support and undying faith in that love. I have watched Amanda and Juan from a distance since July 2013 – They have faced so much together as a couple – both wonderful and unyielding – the most difficult of all was seeing Amanda lose her Mom, Terry,  to cancer. Particularly after Terry confided in me about the illnesses Amanda battled throughout her life. Terry was so incredibly proud of Amanda and felt so much joy her daughter was able to walk down the asile toward this loving man. I remember photographing Terry as she watched her daughter put on her dress and the tears welled up. There was just something so strong between these two and I can still feel it. Every time this song plays, I pause to remember their love, to remember Amanda and her Mom, to cherish the important moments. Every couple has a story and that story should be preserved, loved, and retold with all the compassion it unfolded with. My job is not just a job. It is an opportunity to live, to remember, to preserve, to learn, to document history, to adventure, and to have way too much fun in the process. Amanda and Juan, I remember and think of you often. xo

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A Thousand Years

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I’m afraid
To fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died every day
waiting for you
Darlin’ don’t be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I’ll love you for a
Thousand more

Time stands still
beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything
Take away
What’s standing in front of me
Every breath,
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died every day
Waiting for you
Darlin’ don’t be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I’ll love you for a
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I’ll love you for a
Thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

I have died every day
Waiting for you
Darlin’ don’t be afraid,
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I’ll love you for a
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I’ll love you for a
Thousand more

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With Spring, Flowers Bloom and the Snow Melts

Confession – blogging – I’m not good at it. I dream each day and night. I sit amidst chaos and contemplate perspectives, goals, next steps in my business, personal projects I am motivated by, images I want to create, the life I want to live and yet I struggle opening up to the world. So much inside me and silence is all I had offered. So as this Spring approached I thought about the milestones myself and family had reached in one short year. As I sat there listing everything, I couldn’t help but be mystifed and yet there is more to do – more amazingness to happen. The tip of the list included moving to Seattle on a whim, traveling Asia with some of the most incredible photographers and my fab sis, I transitioned to predominantly film photography, I went full time, we bought a house, and are in the middle of remodeling that house. I left behind a life which was tied to corporations, schedules, government policies, and my proud time served in the Army. That life is now a chapter which has concluded and while Jon and I figure out what life looks like in Seattle- I face challenges and struggles I hadn’t thought of. I knew the adventure of creative drive and logical output would be an interesting balance, particularly in a new part of the country; but what I hadn’t factored, was the pride I had in my last chapter and how that would impact the next. The routine. The normalcy. The success. Will I still be able to claim my uniqueness as a fulltime photographer? How odd that statement seems. In my previous chapter, I strived to be the different one, by means of conquering goals faster and infinitly exceeding expectations. So now… I rely on internal passion, personal thought, emotions, the creative inside and hoping what I have to offer is something this world is interested in. Life is harmonic with crescendos – a wild dance – an inexplicable road trip and as such my photography is a representation of traditions, tid bits of life, and mixed in – some cool artistic perspective from around the world. As this new chapter is written, I can look back on the snow from winter and watch it melt away, uncovering the budding trees, the fresh soil, and new paths waiting to be explored. So while I still will continue to battle my anxiety with opening up – I vow now – I will try. Honesty. openness. confidence. Coming to grips with not fitting a mold – or the mold you ‘should be’. Allowing yourself to just be – as unique as you are. There is SO much beauty in the imperfections and that acceptance is what I extend to clients, friends, family, and now – myself.

 

PS. these over the top adorable people are family and they couldn’t be any more inspiring as a couple, family, and friends. They too have hit so many milestones in one year – they got hitched. had their first little one. explore the country together – never skipping a beat. Dianne, Todd, and Jackson – I love you all.

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From Maryland to Oregon to DC to New York to Virginia to Iceland to Washington & back – 2014

In a short sentence – this year has rocked my world. So much has changed both for my business and my family- traveling to 7 different states/countries to shoot weddings and another 6 countries for personal work, has been so amazing. Traveling is in my blood and when I get to combine that with my passion for photography – I can’t even describe how complete I feel. As I sit here and reflect, I can’t help but wonder – how could so much be jammed into 365 days? I feel overwhelmed with anticipation, love for my family and friends, hope for all the new adventures on the horizon, and gratitude for the lives I’ve been a part of. My clients are more than just clients; they each are a spectacular journey and so many have just begun. I’m going to keep this post short due to the high volume of prettiness which will sum up the incredible year of rad bride and groom’s Ive had!

 

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